Fuck ‘em all but 9...

It’s about being alone and not giving a shit about anything or anybody, because no one gives a shit about you.  It’s about being so tired of the bull shit, you just want to call it quits, throw in the towel.  It’s having your head repeatedly bashed in that even leaning on the ropes gives no respite.

Fuck’em all but 9...

I’m behind the ropes, watching from the side of the ring while one I love is just being pummeled. Nothing I can do, no support, no solace, no comfort I give can help.  What’s worse...?  Being beaten up or watching someone you care about being beaten...and not a God damn thing you can do to stop it.  He has to finish this fight - go all 12 rounds so to speak.  I can feel his weariness, I can see the strain of staying focused on his face. I want this fight to be over finally.  Each time the bell rings, a different fighter steps in, like tag teaming...

Fuck’em all but 9...

I’m so tired, so frustrated, so angry.  I’m tired of seeing illegal punches thrown that the ref’s don’t catch, or turn a blind eye to.  He keeps leaning in, he has a strong chin, he has the integrity to finish this. But it’s so difficult to watch a dirty fight.

He’s alone in this, we’re alone - I suppose that’s the worst part of this...no one in your corner, no support on a daunting and treacherous journey; in the blink of an eye, one sucker punch, you’re down for good.  It’s one thing to fight your own battles, it’s entirely different when the fight’s not fair.

Fuck’em all but 9...6 to carry the casket, 2 road guards, 1 to count cadence...

....it devastates me...this has become his mantra...

Fuck’em all...

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  1. GypsyMtnGirlJune 12, 2012 at 10:16 PM

    Grrr... I'm in his corner, too!!

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  2. ilyannaJune 13, 2012 at 2:35 PM

    Oh, A. Tell him his team has nine -- plus many more who will step in if we can. So sorry you both have to go through this.
    On a completely separate note, your voice is really showing through.

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  3. UnknownNovember 20, 2014 at 9:30 PM

    FTAB9. It's about standing up; not laying down.

    I signed everything w/ that salutation in 1-501 Infantry and used it for a personal motto in the Center for Army Tactics.

    And the Lord don't like ugly, neither!

    LG

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    1. UnknownNovember 20, 2014 at 9:34 PM

      FTAB9 is about speaking out; not remaining silent. Your have to decide if you speak to the enemy or offer solace to the friend.

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